Thursday, October 20, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Francis. Enigma.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Monster Within
I believe there are similarities between the Hmong and Filipinos- rice diet, physical attributes and quite possibly, sleep paralysis deaths. But as much as we Pinoys believe in many supernatural nighttime creatures, too, by experience, I honestly don't think it's the reason I suffer from sleep paralysis.
I've always had trouble sleeping. I'm just one of those who sleep lightly unless I just had a very intense physical workout. Seems to me that my mind comes racing towards a lot of things once I am alone with my thoughts - not necessarily about creatures and such but about as many miscellaneous things as one can think of when inside a library. It's as if time's a waste for the millions of things I'd thought I could do.
Maybe it was around 14 years of age when I first had my frighteningly awakening experience with sleep paralysis. I'd like to describe it as 'mind being awake and aware yet body not responding, a paralysis that also affects respiration'. I've experienced it a lot of times to the point that it added to my sleep problem. In anticipation, I say my nightly prayers and try to keep as few pillows also as they could feel like huge boulders that add to the difficulty of getting through when the paralysis attacks.
And yes, I can say that I've learned to fight through them. The paralysis literally comes like a thief, and you awaken to a darkness around you unable to move. At first, I wasn't aware of the danger it posed. Yes, I could not physically move but then I know I am conscious and aware that something strange is happening. But this same consciousness also comes with the thought that to live is to breathe. And with that realization comes the panic.
With a Catholic upbringing, it's second nature to use prayer as first option. Not to say that I have strong faith but during the paralysis, I always felt that whatever happens there is nothing for me to fear. I've always believed that I have plenty of loved ones who've pased away who, despite my imperfections, continue to watch over me.
Obviously, I've pulled through since I am writing this in a feeble attempt to shed some light on this phenomenon. Well, to say I got through those difficulties through prayer is not the whole story. Yes, I prayed and during the course of it, I also learned to focus all my willpower in getting a small finger to move and eventually break out of the paralysis and wake up. I do that everytime and luckily, it works. Of course, the fear remains but it's not enough to bother me from sleeping at all more than I hate any small dint of light whenever I go to bed.
In her new book, Sherry Adler points out to some cultural monsters that seems tied up to the Hmong's suffering from sleep paralysis. All I can say is, it certainly doesn't seem to be the same for me. I've discussed this with classmates back in high school then, to a few friends in college and with my wife now and the thought of a monster never did creep up in any of our sleep paralysis conversations.
In fact, I'd still lay my case that this thing is tied up to the rice diet. Maybe there's something about the kind of carbohydrate that makes both Hmong and Filipinos predisposed to this paralysis. Thinking about it, I'd often suffer from the paralysis when I sleep after a full rice meal combined with more than regular type of physical activity. With regards to cardiac makeup, I once had an irregular ECG pattern back in college but then an expert said that it was typical of teens to have that so I just brushed it aside. I am past my 4th decade already and proud to say that I can still mix it up with those half my age playing hoops so I can't say I'm in the wrong end of the health spectrum either.
May I also point out that it is not only during night time that I got to experience sleep paralysis. I remember quite accurately that I had one bout when I took an afternoon nap on a weekend after a very sumptuous lunch prepared by my mum. It was summer with the heat and full stomach combined to become very powerful sleep inducers. Alas, I had an inkling that falling asleep back then was like a death sentence but still wasn't able to fight it off. And then it happened. Mind awake and paralyzed yet again.
SO I struggled to move a either a pinkie or a small toe. Unfortunately, there were pillows placed over my hands and feet. I'm not sure how long I tried but during these attacks time seems a measure of when you can breathe again and not some clock activity. It might just be a minute but it did feel like it was longer when all of a sudden I saw my body lying on bed and with the room in full view from above. I was floating from the ceiling! It lasted maybe a few seconds or just an instant but I swear I saw everything. I saw how my brother was getting inside the room to wake me up for merienda (snacks), but in an instant I was back in my body before he (or was it my mum) was able to touch any part of me. I awoke and immediately replied I don't like eating because I heard already what it was - when I was floating. End of story.
I grew up in a small 3 bedroom house with 5 sibling brothers. We started with bunk beds but then I had to move into my own room not as a privilege of being the eldest. Yeah, we loved watching horror movies as kids and we still do so now. So imagine that I had to be brave to sleep inside own room and deal with scary monsters once in while alone by myself. Heck, my brothers were scared too but nobody would admit, except the youngest who wouldn't sleep with lights off to the disgust of the rest of us so he had to sleep by himself on the sala or spend the night tinkering with PC or whatever.
But to this day, we still haven't seen or admit we to have encountered monsters. Truth is, if there ever was, my brothers who sleep in the other room know perfectly well that even scarier than the horror movies and stories is being with me on the same room. For back then, I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night to what might be a boot or shoe hitting my door. And for anyone who has heard me snore, they will tell you that it's better to room in with a real monster.
Related:
The Dark Side of the Placebo Effect
We're now a family of three and our only kid is a big 6-year old. I still don't get to sleep soundly and to add to the woe is that we 3 like to sleep together, not because it's comfortable but because it is a sort of family bonding ritual. Well, it is not typical among Filipino kids to sleep with parents. I often complain that I don't get to sleep soundly because I'd often get kicked in the nuts by the kid in the middle. I am also a light sleeper so any movement is an interruption. But I love being with my kid from the moment she was born and I'd probably just endure it for as long as I can. Besides, a mattress is always ready at the foot of the bed when things just get too rough for me. Probably not the same nightmare monster, but seems only this is the very real one to me.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Why Music Matters - The Beatles
Animation, Beatles and of course, music. What's not to like? I admit I can totally relate to it.
Timeless.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Become The Conscious Type
Words inspire and influence while type casts its spell.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Congratulations, You Failed!
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Thursday, August 4, 2011
Words, Not Swords
Tell your story.
Distill the message.
Craft the piece.
Re-write, re-write.
Change the world.
Again, Who Needs Swords?
Distill the message.
Craft the piece.
Write and re-write.
Change the world.
Friday, July 29, 2011
How to teach kids to be innovators? Go Montessori.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
When Open Feels Closed
From Networkworld:
The group is a “non-profit organization established to advocate open standards in cloud computing”. The OCI is modeled after the Open Source Initiative that helped define OSS and OSI accepted licenses.
The OCI says their purpose is “to provide a legal framework within which the greater cloud computing community of users and providers can reach consensus on a set of requirements for Open Cloud, as described in the Open Cloud Principles (OCP) document, and then apply those requirements to cloud computing products and services, again by way of community consensus.”
One word comes to mind. Splinter.
And that is often is followed by 'ouch'.
[Might as well just call it CCCP. Closed Cloud Computing Posturing. ]
Is that what you call open?
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Choice
It is never too easy -- when all I want is 'simple'. To believe that I am in charge of my own life, to stay true to values I hold dear despite the obvious rule of a consumerist society under the guise of freedom.
Monday, July 11, 2011
eCLOUD: Part weather, part computing wonder. All design genius.
Not only does it capture the essence of looking at clouds to evoke randomness such as when you're looking at actual ones and fuzzing about the shapes, eCloud is an amazing work of computing and design. Excellent alternative when you can't go to the roof because you're not a kid anymore.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Persist
Friday, July 1, 2011
The Irony of a National ICT Month
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Nation's Decline and Rebirth
Friday, June 17, 2011
Of Modern-Day Rizals in our Midst
Every Filipino can certainly learn from Jose Rizal for showing the world that we are certainly capable of brilliance and service at the same time. Yet, heroes don't just have to exist in the past. They can be every bit as alive and successful today leading extraordinary inspirational lives. Thankfully, I get to know and work for one up close.
Lord knows there wasn't so much I wanted to do except take care of Zaki the moment her rare health condition was confirmed. Never had much passion to do anything else, certainly not think about work. But a news story here and a chance encounter there led me to this once in a lifetime opportunity. Knew him a bit back then while attending college. Somehow, appearances aside, there wasn't that much of a change. Until you dig a little further to find some stuff of silicon inside.
There are so many things I can say to describe Winston Damarillo.
Cool young entrepreneur, self-made in Silicon Valley, proudly-Pinoy (and LaSallian), passionately driven by the possibilities of marrying IT with almost anything plus a loving and equally brilliant, wife and kid. Oh and jet-setter, Filipino, WEF-named Young Global Leader and patriotic innovation advocate, too.
Let it also be said that here's a guy who's got plenty of ideas in his head, all going at full speed at the same time yet pragmatically-focused on a successful end result.
He's not just my boss.
Not just my friend.
Come to think of it, maybe he is one of those sort of modern-day Rizals in our midst.
Only this time battling oppression of a worse kind - that which keeps our collective national innovation spirit divided and in inertia while the rest of Asia grows forward.
And for the little things that I can do to help him succeed, those are something too valuable to pass up.
And I know Zaki and wife will understand.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Failure is Innovation's Apprentice
Thursday, June 9, 2011
TIME's Best Blogs 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Seed of Creativity, Seed of Passion
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Life of Surprises
How does the song go ? " Memories light corners of my mind. Misty water-coloured memories of the way we were. "*
As we all know, memories can be fabulous liars, and looking back over ten years since we released our first record, "Lions in my garden", I'm not unhappy to see that the day-to-day details of our legendary career have become smudged upon the canvas of time, forming some unbelievable misty water-coloured memories.
Did we really record all the backing tracks to our first album "Swoon" in an afternoon, believing upon its completion one month later that it would rival "Thriller" as a commercial proposition ?
Did we really audition 147 drummers over 5 days only to realise that applicant number one was the man for the job ?
Who was it that spent three expensive days in the Studio with medium Phyllis King in an attempt to record the voice of the late Elvis Presley - only to contact a troubled spirit identifying itself as Colonel Tom, who wanted 35% of any deal we were making ?
Did Johnny Marr appear in R.A.K.´s studio with a cassette player and tape of "William It Was Really Nothing" while we were making "When Love Breaks Down ?" And did we really release that single 5 times within 18 months before it finally became a hit - monopolising the U.K. number one spot for five weeks ?
Was it a dream or did we eavesdrop on Stevie Wonder as he rehearsed his harmonica solo for "Nightingales" - sat beneath a giant painting of Jimi Hendrix in Westworld Studios ? Do we treasure the photograph ?
Did we really not tour for five productive years ? Have we spent months arguing over tiny details, suppressing the bittersweet knowledge that they´re only records, they mean everything and nothing ? And we were really recording in a Los Angeles studio when the famous voice in the world - that a man from Hoboken - asked us if we´d like a slice of pizza on the occasion of his 69th birthday ? Do we remember that or has time rewritten every line ?
Ten years of making records may justify a Best Of, but it´s hard to feel nostalgic when you hope that the best is yet to come. And who knows ? It´s a life of surprises.
Paddy McAloon May '92
* Apologies to Alan and Marilyn Bergman
Johnny Marr with Morrissey created The Smiths and "William It Was Really Nothing" was one their big hits.
That Hoboken man was, of course, doobie-doobie-doo, Frank Sinatra.
Head over to PrefabSprout.net for more info about the band. Excellent site.
Friday, May 27, 2011
10 Thoughts Before You Hire For Social Media
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
It’s Only Love – Olivia Mancini
Think I heard so much Fab Four when I was in the womb that before age 10, I knew most of their songs by heart listening to the radio every morning just before the school bus arrives.
Haven't tired of listening since...
It's only love? Yeah, right ...
Friday, May 20, 2011
Failure in Innovation is a Price Worth Paying
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Malcolm Gladwell to Steve Job-Wannabes: "Forget Being First"
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
With Amazon's Public Cloud Reign Intact, Private Cloud Innovators Prepare For War
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Cloud computing: More Than Another Amazon Cloud Outage, Fear Complacency
Amazon EC2 Outage Explained and Lessons Learned | InfoQ
Friday, April 1, 2011
The Good Cloud (And Why It Matters More Than What You Think It Is)
Interesting how a recent research again shows the power of metaphors to shape our thinking particularly the effect of 'heights'. In a series of studies - involving escalators, auditorium stage and film clips of scenes taken from an airplane above the clouds, or through the window of a passenger car, it is quite surprising to note that participants exhibited:
"remarkable consistency, linking height and different prosocial behaviors -- i.e., donations, volunteering, compassion, and cooperation. While we may be inclined to think that our behaviors are the product of comprehensive thought processes, carefully weighing the pros and cons of alternatives, these results clearly show that this is not always the case."
Again we ask, would any other term beside cloud be as highly adopted to describe this form of computing? Common sense says this might be irrelevant - miniscule compared to the importance of understanding how it works and the resulting value.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
The Page View
Friday, March 25, 2011
SXSW and Preaching the Cloud Gospel
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Company Culture
Friday, March 18, 2011
Alien Cloud
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Wishful Thinking About Design
Monday, March 14, 2011
Pwn3d: Applying lessons from hacker threat to cloud computing risks
Monday, March 7, 2011
Cloud PH: Philippines' Bright Future in Cloud Computing
At the inaugural event aptly titled, Cloud Computing Now organized by ITProsAsia held at Duhit Thani Manila last Friday - March 4, speakers and panelists all agreed that despite the fears and security issues, there is no stopping cloud computing. Cost savings aside, there are lots of opportunities that open up with the use of the cloud, one of which is innovation which in effect leads to more potential gains.
As Roger Strukhoff, the event moderator, opines, "At their core, Filipinos will always break out of rigidity; a trait that has big potential innovation values when paired with technology that levels the playing field - like cloud computing".
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Gem: Frank Chimero to a Graphic Design Student
Anonymous asked: What advice would you give to a graphic design student?
Design does not equal client work.
It’s hard to make purple work in a design. The things your teachers tell you in class are not gospel. You will get conflicting information. It means that both are wrong. Or both are true. This never stops. Most decisions are gray, and everything lives on a spectrum of correctness and suitability.
Look people in the eyes when you are talking or listening to them. The best teachers are the ones who treat their classrooms like a workplace, and the worst ones are the ones who treat their classroom like a classroom as we’ve come to expect it. Eat breakfast. Realize that you are learning a trade, so craft matters more than most say. Realize that design is also a liberal art. Quiet is always an option, even if everyone is yelling. Libraries are a good place. The books are free there, and it smells great.
If you can’t draw as well as someone, or use the software as well, or if you do not have as much money to buy supplies, or if you do not have access to the tools they have, beat them by being more thoughtful. Thoughtfulness is free and burns on time and empathy.
The best communicators are gift-givers.
Don’t become dependent on having other people pull it out of you while you’re in school. If you do, you’re hosed once you graduate. Keep two books on your nightstand at all times: one fiction, one non-fiction.
Buy lightly used. Patina is a pretty word, and a beautiful concept.
Develop a point of view. Think about what experiences you have that many others do not. Then, think of what experiences you have that almost everyone else has. Then, mix those two things and try to make someone cry or laugh or feel understood.
Design doesn’t have to sell. Although, that’s usually its job.
Think of every project as an opportunity to learn, but also an opportunity to teach. Univers is a great typeface and white usually works and grids are nice and usually necessary, but they’re not a style. Helvetica is nice too, but it won’t turn water to wine.
Take things away until you cry. Accept most things, and reject most of your initial ideas. Print it out, chop it up, put it back together. When you’re aimlessly pushing things around on a computer screen, print it out and push it around in real space. Change contexts when you’re stuck. Draw wrong-handed and upside down and backwards. Find a good seat outside.
Design is just a language, it’s not a message. If you say “retro” too much you will get hives and maybe die. Learn your design history. Know that design changes when technology changes, and its been that way since the 1400s. Adobe software never stops being frustrating. Learn to write, and not school-style writing. A text editor is a perfectly viable design tool. Graphic design has just as much to do with words as it does with pictures, and a lot of my favorite designers come to design from the world of words instead of the world of pictures.
If you meet a person who cares about the same obscure things you do, hold on to them for dear life. Sympathy is medicine.
Scissors are good, music is better, and mixed drinks with friends are best. Start brave and brash: you can always make things more conservative, but it’s hard to make things more radical. Edit yourself, but let someone else censor you. When you ride the bus, imagine that you are looking at everything from the point of view of someone else on the ride. If you walk, look up on the way there and down on the way back. Aesthetics are fleeting, the only things with longevity are ideas. Read Bringhurst and one of those novels they made you read in high school cover to cover every few years. (Of Mice and Men, To Kill a Mockingbird, The Great Gatsby.)
Stop trying to be cool: it is stifling.
Most important things happen at a table. Food, friends, discussion, ideas, work, peace talks, and war plans. It is okay to romanticize things a little bit every now and then: it gives you hope.
Everything is interesting to someone. That thing that you think is bad is probably just not for you. Be wary of minimalism as an aesthetic decision without cause. Simple is almost a dirty word now. Almost. Tools don’t matter very much, all you need is a sharp knife, but everyone has their own mise en place. If you need an analogy, use an animal. If you see a ladder in a piece of design or illustration, it means the deadline was short. Red, white, black, and gray always go together. Negative space. Size contrast. Directional contrast. Compositional foundations.
Success is generating an emotion. Failure is a million different things. Second-person writing is usually heavy-handed. All of this is too.
Seeking advice is addicting and can become a proxy for action. Giving it can also be addicting in a potentially pretentious, soul-rotting sort of way, and can replace experimenting because you think you know how things work. Be suspicious of lists, advice, and lists of advice.
Everyone is just making it up as they go along.
This about sums up everything I know.
Life by Design.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Paul Carr: “Everything is virtual for me – it’s in the clouds”
Friday, January 28, 2011
Anchoring (and the Davos connection)
"A lot of what we decide is influenced by what’s going on around us" explains Legg Mason Capital Management's Chief Investment Strategist, Michael Mauboussin.
I'm sure we think we are all logical and rational but again some observations point to the contrary.
On a bigger scale, those around us shape the way we think and live - skewing our decisions to a particular direction without us being conscious that it's happening.
I'm guessing the only way to fight is awareness. And the most valuable - self-awareness.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
All Eyes On Davos 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
A New Culture of Learning
Doug Thomas & John Seely Brown
"By exploring play, innovation, and the cultivation of the imagination as cornerstones of learning, the authors create a vision of learning for the future that is achievable, scalable and one that grows along with the technology that fosters it and the people who engage with it."
If this is what they say it is, then we've got ourselves a winner in education here.